This goes out to all those in need
who bleed
when no one is around
who are lost and think they will never be found.
Trust in yourself and know that you are loved.
By the Father..and by me..your Brother D'ee
I once despised
the man in my eyes
living lies after countless lies
until I felt I wanted to die
Reflections of
the man that I denied
and no matter how hard I would try
I couldn't help but cry
and then
one summer day You came to me
and forced me to my knees
knees that once
refused to bend
for I refused to acknowledge my many faults
and admit to my many sins
and even then
though I strained
I could not hear
your voice from the heavens calling out to me
whenever evil was near
so I reverted back
to the man who was afraid
to admit he was forced to pray
day after day
I would see small miracles coming true
chalking them up as mere coincedence
ignoring the road leading back to you
on the run
I was the prodigal son
running away from the hurt and pain
fearing
I would end up in the very same
darkness where I once dwelled
for a heart that lives in hell
cannot hope to reach
a soul to teach
the eternal way
to an everlasting day
it felt like my life was on delay
while the world marched on without a care
but then,
how could I have been prepared
to face
a man lost without a trace
drowning in a sea of my own disgrace
my frantic calls could not be heard
above the roaring sea
feeling certain that a life of pain
was my ultimate destiny
and now,
as I sit, writing these words
I recall the voices that I heard
family and friends
saying D'ee, this is not the end
my brother you can live again
so I ask you Father
to use me as you please
may these humble words lift off the page
and reach a soul in need
for as I look back
on that fateful day
I close my eyes and cannot believe
how the devil once deceived
me into believing
that I was healed
without a heartfelt appeal
to You
to You
Bless me Father for I have sinned
please, help your son to live again
Once,
I realized
the man in my eyes
could fool everyone with a smile
but couldn't hide
the tears I cried inside
to my surprise
I felt so much hurt
in the morning, laying in bed
wishing I was dead
calling out from work
day after day
refusing to wake
ashamed to face the promises
I would make
to you Dear Father on my knees
I felt so foolish
begging for a reprieve
so many thought
that I was healed
such strange emotions I would feel
people said D'ee, you are looking great
yet still I was unsure
of my fate
women came and women went
so much wasteful time I spent
trying to live up to a foolish image
always attempting to circumvent
your blessings
yet,
though I fooled, each and every one
I couldn't deceive your Holy Son
for He died for the souls of many
taking His last mortal breaths during the Crucifixion
late one night
He cam to me
and said, my son you have nothing to prove
and it doesn't matter what stream you choose
or what religion you use
for, all healing waters lead back to the Lord
in His vineyard
your grapes of wrath are stored
so, Darwin
never again question your fate
if you believe in love
it's never too late
at that moment
I felt a sudden release
All of the depression gone
that I depended on
I know now it was the exorcism of the beast
and now,
whatever I attempt to write
I know I must make it right
so someone in need can hear my plea
and walk into the light
of their destiny
yes, every recital is an appeal
every word I write reveals
my love for You
Dear Father, thank you for pulling me through
Bless me Father for I have sinned
I thank You
for giving me this chance to live again
and this time I have found
even when no one is around
I can hear the sound
of Your voice
I made the choice
the mracle of a soul that did indeed rise
and no longer am I
the man I once despised
I love me
truly
at last

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