D.Greaves http://dgreaves.posterous.com Well Veresed. Never Rehearsed. posterous.com Tue, 04 Jan 2011 09:36:00 -0800 Never Home (Again) http://dgreaves.posterous.com/never-home-again http://dgreaves.posterous.com/never-home-again

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Early Sunday morning
I kissed my only child
Left a note on the fridge
Baby
I'll be back in a while

4 my Momma
Lord knows
I would do anything
She asked if I would attend
Sunday service
And listen 2 her sing

The Church ain't really changed
Yet
It doesn't feel the same
My nostalga like the candlewax
On the floor
Is just a permanent stain

Greeted my Mother's friends
They asked
Boy where U been
With all due respect Aunties
I've been searching 4 a Sancutary
2 rest my troubled soul in

My Aunite Bell kissed me
And said remember
With Him
You never walk alone
I returned her sweet kiss
But I felt in my bones
Home
Would never be
Home
Again

Driving back 2 her house
Momma said
Baby
Take the long way home
You're so busy these days
All we do is talk on the phone

She filled me in
All about the ups and downs
Of our Bajan Clan
E Dog tryin 2 keep on the narrow
Little Jr. Gettin slightly out of hand

Told her I would
Reach out him
'Cuz all it took
Was 4 me 2 log into my friends
He always chats on Facebook

Found a parking spot
Momma said
Let's sit 4 a while
And asked
Dee whatever happened
2 my little son's smile

I hugged her
With all the love I had
Yet
I felt so sad
And alone
I couldn't admit 2 my Dear Momma
Home
Would never be
Home
Again

Since his stroke
My daddy can barely speak
But he always opens his arms
And smiles
Everytime we meet

I sat down
And held his calloused hands
Felt Daddy's frustration
That we couldn't talk
Man 2 man

He knew something
Was bothering me
That I refused 2 explain
Kissed him on the forehead
2 reassure him
But I felt his pain

Never was I one
2 go running in need
Rather than react 2 pain outwardly
I internally
Bleed

U see
Though I love my Brothers
I was hurt by their petty whispering
Tried 2 ignore the signs
Until I felt resigned
2 the message they send
Home
Would never be
Home
Again

My Brothers heard
That I was over
And said
We're on our way
Told my Momma
Okay
But on the real
I didn't want 2 stay

They came
We hugged
But it wasn't the same
How can you call me
Your brother
If you kickin
Undercover
Game

Momma sensed a separation
She couldn't reconnect
And she began 2 cry
Just put her head down
And asked Dear God
Why

Daddy got upset
And we became concerned
But when a bridge 2 Brotherhood
Rots from neglect
It's a blessing when it burns

Looked into my Brothers eyes
And whispered 2 Daddy
We ARE family until the end
But I knew deep down
Home
Would never be
Home

Again

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