i begin
with this pen
it has walked with me for 30 years
through valleys of darkness
and brought me back again
now i admit
i have made bad choices
but with this pen
in my hand
i became a man
who could interpret his inner voices
and so now
i dedicate this to you
after all that we have been through
for 7 years you bid a sad adieu
when i disrespected the muse
and now
as i sit and quietly peruse
all that i have written
be it dumb struck
or love smitten
never did you stop
delivering a song of the wind to me
through acceptance and adversity
always bringing an infusion of passion
when love was being rationed
and so now
i can hear the father callimg me
saying dee
deliver your personal homily
for everything i do
and say i am
the father
son
lover
brother
begins
with this pen
always imploring me to reach within
feeling gods breath upon my skin
i say this
to family and friends
who were always there for me
even when i refused to believe
please know that every word i bleed
on this page
is for the love of you
for once when i felt anger and uncontrollable rage
you told me to stand tall and brave
my life
you truly saved
and to think
it all begins
with this pen
and my admission
in poetry and prose
my means didnt always justify the end
yet through
the manic mistakes
and faithless doubts
the black pride in me would shout
refuse to pretend
and always defend
your pen
and though i know
the past is time now forever lost
lord knows
i have paid the cost
the devil sure nuff took a toll
but though my soul
was leased
never was it sold
and even know
when sit down to eat
the body and blood of the christ
i know the devil is waiting in these mean streets
but never again will i be weak
for though the meek
shall one day inherit the earth
as a black man i must proove my worth
everyday
every morning do i pray
please dear god bless the world
my family and friends
and let my day begin
with this pen

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