another day
living in the darkness
you once occupied
finding a way
to smile and laugh
through my lies
so close to the edge of a cliff
my feet slipping
almost gone
impaled upon the cross of my arrogance
i rest on
plagued with problems
like everyone else
for how can i love you
if i dont respect myself
my false pride sparkling like the jewels
of a foolish kings crown
rising to heaven
being cast back down
to live within the confusion
of my illusions
so tired am i
wanting so badly to sleep
but everytime i close my eyes
images creep
so for a while i must fade
get as close to the father as i can
or watch our love be cast away
to a forgotten land
baby
i need you here
but not as i appear
i want you to view the man in me
not an image somewhat clear
i am tired of seeing you hurting
tired of watching you dry your tears
i cannot allow you to commit
your thoughtfulness to living
with me through thankless years
another day
on my knees
yes do i pray
not only for you and i
but for those living in darkness
to find their way
you and i have been given
a chance many never have
in a lifetime
how many wander through the garden
only to find
a serpent waiting to deceive
telling them without the fathers blessing
they can still achieve
immortality
so they walk a road
with no finality
in shame
witnessing the rising ashes of their souls
set aflame
who can i blame
if i chose to remain
walking within the ruins of a city
ignoring the fathers sanctuary
i can hear him pleading to me
son
my son
come in from the cold
to live a life of love everlasting
once foretold
baby
i need you here
but not drowning in man made tears
struggling to breathe in my river of discontent
i know in my heart
you were heaven sent
to guide me back to the father
and repent
but how
right now
can i lie to you and him
praising his mercy
while consciously
living in my sin
but i am still strong
though wrong
one day soon in his embrace
i will belong
and he will help me find away
before the sunlight fades on our love
another day